pregnancy

On her husband's reaction to the pregnancy:

No two losses are the same.

She was vocal about the condition up and down the red carpet, telling reporters she wanted to set a good example for her daughter. "I do feel and hope it’s made other people’s lives better… because postpartum depression was not something that I ever understood. You could never understand it unless you have a personal involvement with it," she said.

Last week, I did something reckless. I went out for Mexican food, and drank a margarita. The server didn’t ask for my ID, and she didn’t even ask for proof that my ovaries were on lock down.

No one ever really tells you what it’s like when the magic of pregnancy has become the sometimes-not-so-magic of postpartum. This is my postpartum reality.

While this final stage might take years to get to, you will finally come to a place where you realize that strong truly is the new sexy and you did something that took all the strength that you have inside you to bring your child into this world. This is not something to take lightly, this is heroic.

It was the weirdest thing. I looked at this tiny human and felt nothing. Absolutely nothing. No overwhelming joy at finally meeting this person I’d been so excited for in months prior, no lurking sadness about no longer being pregnant and relishing in those shared “inside mommy’s belly” moments. Just... nothing. My brain said, “You have a baby now,” and that was that.

I guess it’s normal to be nervous. All we hear about is the pain and agony surrounding childbirth. People enjoy warning you about sleepless nights, tons of laundry and the massive poops you’ll deal with once the baby is here.